Why, hello old blog of mine!

Man, it sure has been a long time. Shame on me. A lot has happened since the last time I posted. Update time! Well, I was on a roll with my weight loss and then I hit that road block... that emotional road block. I just snapped and didn't care anymore. Things were going on in my life that no one knew about... most still don't know. Was in a car accident that totaled our van. Ended up with a nice car afterward, but it was sure a struggle to get there. On top of that, I injured my back and it was as if I was 468 pounds all over again. Since I felt like I was 468 (because of being immobile) I started eating like I was 468. Trying to forget the physical and mental pain I was feeling. From December to beginning of June, I gained 49 pounds back that I had lost. When I saw I was 386, something in side of me just clicked. What the hell was I doing? Why was I doing this to myself? To my daughter? To my husband? I remembered how free I felt last year with all the weight I lost... how good I felt about myself. As I stood on that scale staring down a number that once was, I realized I was on the downward spiral and I had to find my way out of the hole I dug myself. So, mid-June, I decided enough of the pity party... get back on it and do it. I sit here now at 368. (doctor's scale said 364, but for the sake of keeping track, going to stick to my scale). I want to get back to 337 (last known accurate weight) and continue on my journey. I went to the doctor the other day for routine check up. I was scared out of my whits. I was so afraid that my horrible eating from December - beginning of June was going to really destroy everything that I had accomplished over the course of last year. Thankfully, I am in awesome shape! Blood sugar, cholesterol, both great! My liver enzymes that were all elevated last year, only one type is elevated now. I had a fatty liver and it is starting to heal itself. YAY! I am not as gun-ho as I was last year... not going to go crazy and extreme. I want to pace myself so that way it is a lifestyle that I will more than likely stick to. I have some goals set, and with any luck and determination, I will nail them. Here are my little ones. Goal 1: I wanted to hit 100 pounds lost again... and I did as of August 15. SCORE! Goal 2: I want to be able to walk a mile without sitting again. Hopefully, I will get there. My back makes it very difficult to do so. Bigger Goal 3: Be in the 200's before my birthday at the end of February. Meaning, losing 68 pounds in 6 months. I think that is pretty reasonable. Bigger Goal 4: Bike ride 10 miles at least before biking season is over. So.... simple and small goals for myself. I need to do this. I have to do this. My daughter is depending on me.